A Lack of Color

Victoria. I like music, pizza, the color black, cold weather, being a smartass, speaking in a British accent, and cute puppies. Tis my blog, enjoy :)

Hello, my name is Victoria and I’m not drinking at the moment

So I realized it’s been 5 days with no booze and I took two drags off of a cigarette last night. Oh well. I’m more concerned about the alcohol part. I’m really going to try to keep on keeping on with this sober deal. Last night was a big reality check. 

Kristian and I went to Mugshots and the usuals were there and everyone was drinking and immediately offered to buy us shots upon arrival. Normally I would have said HELL YEAH and I almost did right then and there but then I just said I’m not drinking and then I get the look of confusion and the question “why not?” which I’m sure I’ll inevitably answer about 20 times and of course “just because” is never an adequate answer. Then you get called out to other people by this person “oh let’s all take a shot well except for Victoria, she’s not drinking!” Like I get it. I would drink almost everyday and it may seem unfathomable to people that know me that I’m abstaining from alcohol but jeez I wish they would be a little bit more supportive. 

Alcoholism is SUPER rampant in my family and it was scaring me that I couldn’t remember the last time I voluntarily went more than 2 days without a drink. I’ve found myself craving alcohol and save for a rough day or pizza, I never want to crave it. Plus my drunken shenanigans and binge eating were getting out of hand. AND not to mention I DO NOT want another DWI. fuck that. They are super strict here in Austin. 

Thus, I will continue this whole alcohol free life for as long as I like, whether that be another day, week, month or a complete new lifestyle. And I already know if I do this long enough and then I get a drink there will be gasps and OMGs and “I thought you weren’t drinking anymore?” whatever dude. I do what I want. 

Bottom line, I feel great, I’m sleeping better, exercising every day and can honestly see that getting shit faced is kind of lame. At least that’s how it seems when you’re the only fully sober one around. I wish I had another friend that wanted to get healthy and not drink but I would never try to convert my friends or make them feel guilty for doing what they do. They are still cool people and we can still hang out like before, I’m just going to be saving more money ;) soooo yeah. 

love and light 

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